I didn’t feel like leading worship that Sunday.
I didn’t know what I felt. I really didn’t want to feel. All the excitement. Planning. Joy. Smiling. It was crushed with a confirmation from our doctor. We lost a baby…again. Maybe he or she was only weeks old, but he or she was my little one. And I loved them even though I’d never met them. I still get wet eyes when I think about those little ones Patty and I will see in Heaven.
And as a worship leader, I had to lead God’s people in celebration that morning. And I can flat out guarantee that I didn’t feel like celebrating. On that Sunday morning, I began the introduction to a song I’d led a dozen times before: “Lord I Run to You”.
That song became real to me that day.
The comfort of the Holy Spirit became more real that day.
The power of praise in the middle of the storm became my liberation. And that morning—in an instrumental break during that song—I read these verses found in Psalm 92:1-5.
It is good to praise the Lord and make music to your name, O Most High,
proclaiming your love in the morning and your faithfulness at night,
to the music of the ten-stringed lyre and the melody of the harp.
For you make me glad by your deeds, Lord;
I sing for joy at what your hands have done.
How great are your works, Lord, how profound your thoughts!
The anonymous writer of this Psalm tells us it’s “good to praise the Lord”. By saying it’s “good”, he’s not just giving us one of those “you ought to do this”. Instead, the word “good” means it has desirable or positive qualities—especially for those who actually do it. In other words, praise and worship actually helps us!
Now, this isn’t to say we can go so far as, “when we worship, we’re really doing it for us. Not God.” There’s no where in the Bible where it says we respond to God’s grace in giving us life with raging narcissism. Instead, what this word “good” means is there are side effects to worship that are, in fact, to our benefit.
If you’re going through a storm and it feels like your ship is going down, there is something indescribable about “proclaiming your love in the morning and your faithfulness at night”. God’s love, mercy, and grace towards us have already given us enough reason to spend all of our breath praising Him and telling others what He has done. It’s only our enemy, Satan, telling us God has deserted us. That’s not the truth; that’s a lie.
I don’t know what you might be going through as you read this. Sickness, loss, physical pain, emotional pain…never forgot that He has made us glad by His deeds—past, present, and future.
When the weight of the world crashes in, the freedom in our praise rises up.